Saturday, June 15, 2013

an education


While my children completed yet another year of their schooling and are absorbing the early days of their summer break, I have set out on some learning of my own.


I fell apart for a bit.  Like in a bad way.


One sunny spring day I sat trembling in a doctors office as she tried her best way to tell me I have multiple sclerosis. 

A disease I knew nothing about.

But I’m learning.


It affects everyone differently.  For me it started with my vision and some hand arm coordination issues.

It brought me way down.

But here I am. Now. Today.

I am happy.  I am grateful.

I have faith. And hope.

I have so many people to love.


Things are getting better every day. 

I’m not afraid anymore.

I hesitated to blog about this.  But it is me, a big part of me.  The hardest thing I have been through ever.


People go through stuff, and I am going through this.

I can still take care of my family, I can dance and eat lobster.

I can sew and laugh and swing at the park.

It took a while for me to realize all this.

I am so grateful.

For God.

For Life.

For Love.

For You!



Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear that. I have a mom friend who was also diagnosed when her son was about your baby's age. Such a hard thing for a young mom to have on her plate! I will be praying for both of you - and your families!
-Joanie in California

Elaine said...

I am also so sorry to hear that, and also have a dear friend (here in the UK) who has recently received an MS diagnosis. It is odd how little many people (including me) know about it. With all best wishes for your health and for you and your family. Thank you for your list of things you can still do. Those are BIG things.

kaysbee said...

This is a difficult time for you; but hang in there. From what I have read recently, they are making great strides with MS treatments.

Take care and keep counting those blessings. May you have many more blessings to count in days to come.

UJ said...

Great talking with you the other're a strong woman! I'm proud to be your uncle..........

It's Just Dottie said...

Hugs and prayers, my friend.
I am here for you if you need to talk. Please keep on blogging you have so many friends here who care so much about you. Dottie

Anonymous said...

I've been a long time reader. Have missed your writing, you have a wonderful gift! Thinking of you and your family while you navigate through with some new challenges.

LuAnn said...

Hi! I just found your blog today.
I know this is a stressful time in your life that you are going through but please know that this is not a death sentence in any way. You can beat this as it is a "lifestyle disease".
We are bombarded constantly with toxins and our bodies are paying for it.
Please E-mail me as I have some information to share with you.
You are not alone,

Sweet Cottage Dreams said...

I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, but thank you for sharing with us. I will hold you in my prayers. MS affects people in different ways - some more mild than others.

You have a good attitude and keep up the positive thinking. I have health issues, too, but have to remember to stay positive - though there are days that take a toll on me...hence my lack of blogging lately.

much love to you and yours and tell you hubby thank you for his continued service.


Dawn Castor said...

Is that your pig? Your baby is so big! My MIL has some pieces that match the china. And most of all, so sorry! That stinks! I've been praying for you. I read your response to my blog post a few weeks ago and you've been on my heart ever since! . Isaiah 55 tells us that our ways are not the Lord's ways but He promises that we shall "go out with joy and be peacefully guided."

It's Just Dottie said...

I am thinking about you friend. God is good I know He really is.
Hugs, Dottie

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

I read this and walked away for a little while...and shed a few tears. We've been friends since I started blogging and I've always felt we are kindred spirits. I know you'll do are strong and determined. At least you know what's wrong and you can deal with it. I know'll research it and find out all of the ways to manage it and you'll put it in it's place! I'm keeping you in my prayers sweet friend. Please let me know if there is anything else I can do! Sending you lots of big ole Southern hugs, your buddy, Diane

Barbara said...

I am so sorry that I am behind in my reading, and so sorry to just hear about this, and so hopeful for you ... I know several people with MS who had a very difficult time with the diagnosis part and have had remarkable success once they knew what was going on ... I hope the same for you.