Tuesday, November 23, 2010

being grateful while being anxious

Is it possible to look forward to entertaining while kind of dreading it at the same time?

I love gearing up for a holiday, getting the house straightened up ( I like that, so shoot me) and everyone’s outfits pressed and starched.  I like using the pretty dishes and linens and decorating within reason.  I even like inviting people over to sit at our table and share a meal.  But the anxiety that comes with it just about does me in.  The only remedy that quenches my anxiety is being grateful.  It’s very easy to turn inward and hesitantly I admit I often do.

But the truth is I am very grateful…for the big stuff, like my family and having a table and food to share.  And for the little stuff like seeing my kids interact and having the ability to appreciate that, cause trust me there are days when I am so doggone tired I don’t see the warmth and love in my everyday life. 


But it is there each and every day, even the off ones and I am so very grateful for that.


Pushing anxiety aside always seems like work.  I struggle with it.  It’s kind of like being an outgoing person stuck in a shy person’s body.  Oh and having really good jokes to say about the dinner guests and having to keep them all in.


I hope this week you find yourselves surrounded by good company and food.  And that all that stuff about politics and weather and holiday shopping is replaced with gratitude for the simple things like a good book and your grandmother’s crocheted blanket.

We have an exterior room off our house that has a very high balcony.  Henry and I were cleaning the room today and I let him pee off the balcony.  He was so thrilled by this and must have said “THANKS, MOM” five or six times.

I think that is gratitude at its best.


Andi said...

And he will never outgrow the urge to pee off of, well, ANYTHING. Men are weird.

When we went camping with my family this fall, I had contemplated stepping outside our tent camper and squatting so I wouldn't have to walk all the way to the bathrooms. Luckily I had changed my mind when I saw my nephew standing outside my camper at 5:30 in the morning! That might have been awkward.

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

Boys are so much fun! I know....I have four of them! lol And they never grow up! Enjoy your Thanksgiving holiday! Hugs! ♥

Barbara at Oodles and Oodles said...

That picture in the big comfy chair warmed my heart, and the story at the end made me laugh out loud ... I think you have everything exactly right. Happy Thanksgiving!

Jemm said...

That's hilarious. You know, I feel the same way about entertaining. I love to have people over. I love the dishes, the linens etc. just like you said. Then half the time I ruin it for myself and sometimes for my family because I stress out so bad. Ugh!

Thanks for you sweet comment.

Prairie Rose said...

The things that make little boys happy!
Happy Thanksgiving!
I know you will have a lovely day!

It's Just Dottie said...

I once let Dax pee in my garden . We were working in it and he waited to long to make it to the bathroon. So I told him," Just pee in the garden." Now he wants to do it everyday!!
Happy Thanksgiving .

Jacqueline said...

Oh Henry...you are a treat in itself today! The little smiles, just the thought of it makes my heart glad.
Happy Thanksgiving Day. May it be love filled.