When it rains, it pours

Being open with my emotions is a difficult thing to do. I usually save it all for my husband who is usually trying to fall asleep after working a long day but as he is a gift from God he is always the Comforter and hears my every woe until I myself am at peace and asleep. October was a difficult month for our family. Samantha, our niece on my husband's side tragically passed away from a freak accident in front of her house. She was twelve, a beautiful, smart and lovely girl. She injured her head in a way she could not recover from. There are so many emotions that as a family we are traveling through. It has been a couple weeks, it will never make sense, it was too sudden, too tragic. I feel like I look at my own kids with new eyes, with wonder and awe. And of course everyday I think of Samantha's parents and what they are going through.

Following all this, our computer and laptop no longer worked from unrelated issues. Ken was traveling only to come home and catch the blue ribbon of cold/flu from me. We spent the last few days shivering, sweating and coughing, begging the kids to bring crackers and puhleeese change a diaper. But today I notice the shining sun and the way Henry keeps hugging my arm. Everything is good. My sinuses are aching but I must find the ooomph to bake a choc cake--it's Samuel's birthday!